I am just devestated. I can't really show my anger and my devestation because I'm the oldest daughter and supposed to be strong. I don't know when I can break down.
Okay back story. My dad wasn't feeling well for the longest time and finally went to the doctor long story short turns out he has cancer in his stomach and something resembling cancer in his spleen. This is all happening so fast and is all surreal. He is the strongest person I know and it is so unfair that it is happening to him. So they diagnose him not even a full two weeks ago and now they are doing surgery this friday. So fast. But the wrost part is they are planning on taking his entire stomach and are concerned the cancer may have spread to his liver.
What I don't understand is why him? He is so strong and so smart and so just my dad. He's so young. He doesn't want me talking about it online but I don't know who I can talk to about it. I don't know who I can cry to. I know eric will listen and let me cry to him but I feel like I need a hysterical crying moment.
I don't know what to do....
Even though you are the oldest, you dont always have to be the strongest! It is okay if you cry or need comforting by your other siblings. They are there for you too just as you have been there for them. It might be good for you to just let all this emotion out...scream hysterically, punch a wall (okay not really, use a punching bag) or just stomp your feet while screaming for a minute or too. You deserve to let everything out! Yes, you do have Eric but you also have me and I'm sure your other friends would agree, come to 'us' when you need to cry, vent, rant or rave!! I love you!
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